I am a super paranoid MOM!! That's the conclusion I have arrived at...
For quite sometime I have been calculating the option of giving her top feed. I know mother's milk is best for a child but she's clutched on to me throughout the day and it's getting too stressful for me and also affecting my mental well being. Everytime I end feeding her, I feel like she's not getting adequate diet and it worries me even more. So to ensure that she's fed properly and adequately I want to add NAN1 to her feed.
Last night, we got so restless and got a pack of NAN1 and a feeding bottle. The moment I opened the bottle pack and put it to boil, I went through multiple emotions. For 17 days she was dependent on mommy for her feed and suddenly I was in process of preparing her artificial milk diet. It felt like I was distancing myself from her and it felt terrible. But still I went ahead and prepared the milk with tears in my eyes. I knew I would not be able to feed her with the bottle so passed her on to my mom. The sight of seeing her gulp down milk from the bottle was not a very pleasant one for me! And while my sight was glued on to her with my heart beating faster, I saw her throw up every drop of the artificial milk that she had taken. I jumped to hold her and make sure she's doing ok. I held her tight and saw her moving close to my chest. She wanted mumma's milk! MOTHERHOOD IS COMPLEX AND STRESSFUL but at times peaceful too :)
I hope we both pass through this phase soon and get to understand each other better!
For quite sometime I have been calculating the option of giving her top feed. I know mother's milk is best for a child but she's clutched on to me throughout the day and it's getting too stressful for me and also affecting my mental well being. Everytime I end feeding her, I feel like she's not getting adequate diet and it worries me even more. So to ensure that she's fed properly and adequately I want to add NAN1 to her feed.
Last night, we got so restless and got a pack of NAN1 and a feeding bottle. The moment I opened the bottle pack and put it to boil, I went through multiple emotions. For 17 days she was dependent on mommy for her feed and suddenly I was in process of preparing her artificial milk diet. It felt like I was distancing myself from her and it felt terrible. But still I went ahead and prepared the milk with tears in my eyes. I knew I would not be able to feed her with the bottle so passed her on to my mom. The sight of seeing her gulp down milk from the bottle was not a very pleasant one for me! And while my sight was glued on to her with my heart beating faster, I saw her throw up every drop of the artificial milk that she had taken. I jumped to hold her and make sure she's doing ok. I held her tight and saw her moving close to my chest. She wanted mumma's milk! MOTHERHOOD IS COMPLEX AND STRESSFUL but at times peaceful too :)
I hope we both pass through this phase soon and get to understand each other better!
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