In beauty and mediocrity!

When I met Ratish and when our wedding date got finalized, I often used to wonder if I will ever be able to share the same level of comfort with him as I do with my immediate family. The thought used to scare me and believe me, the first few months of marriage were challenging. I was always trying to look my best and do everything that was expected of me. But was I being myself then? No. I wasn't. And honestly I was struggling. Just as much I wanted him to be the perfect husband, he 'I thought' obviously expected me to be perfect in return.

But the layers came off soon. Atleast his did, when he started to kiss me right after waking up (without bothering about the bad breath) or when he started to wear the shabbiest of night clothes and did not expect me to mind. After all we were going to spend a lifetime together. For how long could we keep our masks on! But my mask still took some more time to come off! It was probably coz when it comes to relationships, deep within I am extremely guarded. I am always on my toes looking for signs that might drift the other person away from me. Hence, for obvious reasons I took a little long to realise that this is the man I will be spending the rest of my life with. He will love me through my best as well as worst. So when I was willing to give that levy to him, irrespective of his appearance, breath or attitude, I can 'with all authority' expect the same from him!

Here we are today! I am expecting and at my fattest BEST! The glow on my face has worn off and so has the shine in my hair :( (Docs say it is temporary) Anyways, we even go out to shop and I don't mind wearing my casual slippers. Because our relationship has evolved, happily so! I hope the love never fades out! I like it this way :))